New Friends

Wow! It's been a while since I came here to visit you, God. Hope you're not mad at me. I've been talking with You all along, but somehow it always feels better to slow down and talk with You like this.

Thanks to You and Your Goodness, I have a whole bunch of new friends. At times it's overwhelming to me. I think, "What did I do to deserve this?" And then I realize it is Your Grace and I did nothing to deserve it; that it is a free gift from You to me.

It's humbling to know You think of me like that. It's humbling to know You think of me at all!

And so on this day, I celebrate having my new friends... the friends who have embraced me like family and who help me in my day-to-day things. I'd truly be lost, but then You know that, huh?

Thank You for the Blessings, God, How Great Thou Art!!!

Life Is Over... ?

God, I don't know what to do with all this.

People are sick and dying. One little boy is only four and has had his fourth heart surgery. Another little boy is blind and his caretaker slashed his dog's throat and left the little boy naked on the floor until a relative got there. My sister-in-law died yesterday. A man I know has a gaping wound where doctors botched the surgery. Cancer is rampant in my small community of friends.

Branching outward, the world is a mess. Wars, starvation, civil rights abuses, animal abuses, greed, lust, power.... Some have so much. Too many have nothing.

Things you have said are abominations are being written into law. Storms, earthquakes, floods are ever increasing in strength and frequency.

I know you can't tell me, but are you coming soon? I don't feel as though I am ready yet. There is so much about you I don't know. I feel like the ONE thing I will need to know is the thing I will be missing and I will lose out on eternity with you.

I can't do anything about the state of the world. I really can't do anything about all the sick people either. And so I pray. But I really don't know WHAT to pray for. Is life suppposed to be so sad? Is life as we have known it over and done? Can you help me to understand?

In the meantime I just have to keep one thing in mind...

How great Thou art!!!

Partial Blindness

Like the blind man to whom you gave sight, I cling to you, Dear God. But even I know that were you to 'cure' my blindness in one fell swoop, it may be more than my spirit could endure.

And so today I thank You for allowing me insights, little by slow, so they can take root in my heart and grow good fruits.

You are an amazing God! How Great Thou Art!

A New Friend

What a great day, God. You gave me a new friend.

It's like finding out there is still some apple pie left. No wait! It's like knowing you have minutes left on your phone. Naw, it's like discovering all your outgoing letters have the postage already paid.

I'm so bad at this, huh? OK... it's like all that times the square root of the speed of light to the 10th power... plus!

I guess I'm excited. How great thou art!

The Dance

Hello God...

After the sermon yesterday, I felt a little bewildered. I do that a lot around you anyway. Your ways are not my ways... and I thank you for that.

I got to thinking about my life and how it feels sometimes. I have to be careful in that respect because although it may 'feel' a certain way, it may not actually be a fact. For instance, I may 'feel' depressed, but it doesn't necessarily means I have to 'be' depressed. A fine line, I know. But it is the fine lines that define success or failure for me.

So I thought, "If I could sum up my life as to how it feels most days, what would that be?"

It varies, yes, but there is a common theme throughout it all for me. My life feels like a dance. It is a performance which I was graced from you, animated through you and done for you.

As long as I allow you to be in control it is a most perfect ballet accompanied by wonderful soothing music. And when I digress, I feel as though I am hot-footing it across a griddle in the fire and the music is swallowed up by my screams.

I thank you for the days I dance... perfectly in your will, surrounded by perfect melody. You are an Awesome God. How Great Thou Art.